I was taught in high school on the computers that required a floppy disk to boot. The screen was black, and the words were green. After I graduated, I didn’t use a computer for a long time until I went back to college. And even then, I still used the old style back screen and green words. I couldn’t do much on it except write and print.
After college, I purged for a Gateway computer because they gave me credit to buy it. And then, after that, it was all uphill. Today I have a desk top and two monitors. If I could hook up a third one, I would.
As an adolescent, I lived in a house that seemed to have its own life. From the creaks in the floorboards to the strange sounds that resonated down the halls, it constantly felt like something—or someone—was watching me. These bizarre incidents lingered with me long after I left the house, and I realized that the memories of that location would haunt my creative soul indefinitely. That unsettling inspiration eventually became the basis for a song I wrote, one that captures the feelings, terror, and mystery I felt all those years before.
When I started writing the song’s lyrics, I intended to convey the spooky feelings I had as a young girl in that haunted house. The atmosphere of terror and disorientation I experienced, the shadows that appeared to dance just out of sight, and the sense of helplessness in the face of something far stronger than myself are all reflected in the song. It seemed alive, full of unspoken tales and mysteries, and it wasn’t just a house. Here’s a sneak peek at the lyrics inspired by these feelings.
The tone of anxiety is established in verse 1 with the fear of being awakened by whispering in the middle of the night. I can still recall those times when I was lying in bed, hearing unreal sounds yet feeling them with all of my senses. It seems as though there is no way out because of the walls crowding in and the shadows moving on their own. I was surrounded by fear like a thick blanket, and I never really got over it.
Verse 2 describes the sensation of being followed by someone invisible. The echoes of footsteps in the corridor, a cold sensation running down your spine as if someone—or something—was present but you couldn’t see it. I always felt watched, as if the walls themselves had eyes, and the scariest aspect was not knowing what would happen if I slipped up.
The Chorus is the heart of the song, in which I ponder on the house’s unwavering grip on me. It wasn’t just a haunted house in a creepy, mythical sense; it was an actual location with ghosts of twilight and gray. The wails and screams of the past appeared to reverberate in the air, as if the house was playing a game with me that I could never win. It seemed like I was stuck in a chess game, where I was always the pawn, helpless and inconsequential.
Verse 3 introduces the tangible manifestations of the haunting: rattling windows, slamming doors, and the unending darkness. I felt like there was nowhere to escape or hide. Those icy, invisible hands reaching from the bottom and the words pleading for more made me feel helpless and insignificant. The home seemed to be demanding my attention, drawing me into its twisted embrace.
Verse 4 depicts a rising sensation of imprisonment. Every corner held a fresh horror and a new secret. The thump of my heartbeat as I attempted to navigate the house served as a continual reminder that I was always on edge, racing against time and terror. But no matter where I turned, I couldn’t get away from the house’s merciless grasp; it was always in charge.
The Outro adds to the eerie mood, with flickering flames and murmurs twisting inside my dreams. This is where I consider the thought that the house wields power over me, locking me in an eternal loop. It reigns supreme in my memory, a place I can never leave, no matter how much time passes. It’s the ultimate twist, the house’s unbreakable grip on me, and it feels like it’ll never let go.
When I look back, I understand that those scary situations, although leaving me rattled, inspired something creative and long-lasting. This music allows me to process my concerns, transforming what was previously a source of anxiety into something artistic. It reminds me that even the most traumatic situations can shape who we are today.
So, while the mansion previously held me captive in dread, it now has a special place in my heart because it inspired my song. And, in some ways, it has finally allowed me to change roles—no longer the pawn, but the one who gets to tell the story.
I want to share YouTube channels that I follow on my website. I wrote this song with the intention of sharing it with the person who I wrote the song for in the first place. I was unsuccessful in contacting her, so I am sharing it here with you. I did rewrite the song and thought about posting it in my YouTube channel, but I don’t think I will. This song is something I want to share but I don’t want to put out into YouTube land just yet.
This song would be considered personal, and it may have the makings of being a song you could hear on the radio even though it was created with Suno AI. The radio is not a place for AI voices but a place for real people’s voices. I don’t know if there would be any musician out there that would like this song or not, but if you are that one person, contact me.
I did create a video for this song, but I can only share the audio and a picture for visuals.
Country living in the hills of Tennessee.
Fearfully Created
Welcome into her world, where the hills meet the sky, Where love fills the rooms and dreams never die. A simple kind of life, yet so beautifully made, This is her story—Fearfully Created.
Her name is Merina, in the hills she resides, East Tennessee mornings, where the sun opens wide. In a double-wide mobile, with love in each room, Her husband and four kids make her life bloom.
The laughter of children, the bark of a dog, The morning dew shining through the Tennessee fog. She’s not chasing perfection, just living with grace, Finding purpose and joy in her sacred place.
Dogs at her feet, chickens roam in the yard, Acres of freedom, though some days can be hard. She turns her little world into a work of art, With a camera in hand and a homemaker’s heart.
Fearfully created, her life’s on display, Cooking, cleaning, and making it a brighter day. Redecorating corners, making memories true, In the heart of her home, there’s always something new.
Her kitchen’s her canvas, where flavors collide, Homemade meals with love served on the side. From sweeping the floors to painting the walls, Her home tells a story in every hall.
Cooking, cleaning, making every day bright, Turning small moments into treasures of light. A life full of purpose, a joy celebrated, This is her story, Fearfully Created.
So watch her journey, take a seat, stay awhile, Through the lens of her life, she’ll make you smile. Fearfully created, her story unfolds, In the foothills of Tennessee, where her heart is whole.
This song and lyrics are copyrighted by Lisa Sanders.
Marriage thrives behind closed doors, built on teamwork, communication, and prioritizing your partner above all else. When life gets messy, a strong foundation carries you through. True strength isn’t in appearances but in the love, trust, and quiet commitment you share—because a thriving relationship starts where no one else can see.
The Strength of a True Partnership
In this post, I want to talk about what my website is all about. I want to share ideas, advice, and facts with my readers. So, first of all, thanks for coming to my page. Marriage is one of the most beautiful and challenging journeys you can embark on with someone. It’s not about perfection. It is not about public appearances. But about the unwavering commitment and love that form the foundation of your relationship. A foundation should be built and nurtured behind closed doors. In this post, I want to share some reflections on what makes a strong marriage and why your partner should always come first, even above the demands of work and other external pressures.
1. Your Partner Comes First
In the hustle and bustle of life, it can be easy to let work, hobbies, or even social obligations take precedence over your relationship. But at the end of the day, your job won’t hold your hand when you’re sick, comfort you during hard times, or celebrate your victories with genuine joy. Prioritizing your partner means ensuring that your love and commitment remain at the center of your life, no matter what else is going on.
When one of you is sick or struggling, the other naturally steps in to pick up the slack—whether it’s managing the household, taking care of the kids, or simply being there as emotional support. This kind of partnership is what makes a marriage strong. It’s about being a team, always ready to carry each other through life’s ups and downs.
2. The Importance of Communication
Good communication is the backbone of any healthy relationship. One of the most important lessons I’ve learned in marriage is to ensure that my partner and I are always on the same page. Nothing is more embarrassing or frustrating than finding out that someone else has discussed something with your spouse that you haven’t even talked about yet. These moments can create confusion and misunderstandings that are easily avoided with open and honest communication.
Take the time to discuss plans, decisions, and even small daily updates with your partner. Make it a priority to come to agreements together, so there’s no room for miscommunication or outside interference. This not only strengthens your bond but also shows others that your marriage is built on mutual respect and understanding.
3. A Strong Marriage is Built in Private
It’s easy to project a happy image to the world, but true strength in marriage isn’t about public appearances. It’s about what happens behind closed doors. This is where you build your foundation, where love and trust grow, and where challenges are faced together without outside influence.
In a strong, healthy marriage, decisions are made as a couple, and disagreements are worked through privately. No one outside your relationship truly knows what goes on in your home, and they don’t need to. The important thing is that your foundation is solid and built on love, respect, and a shared commitment to each other.
4. Recognizing Toxic Relationships
While this post focuses on healthy relationships, it’s important to acknowledge that not all marriages are built on a solid foundation. If one partner is mean, abusive, or unwilling to work toward a strong and healthy bond, it may be time to reevaluate the relationship. No one should feel trapped in a toxic or harmful environment. If the foundation of your marriage cannot be rebuilt, seeking help or leaving may be the best path to a healthier future.
Final Thoughts
My marriage is a partnership like no other. We are there for each other, communicate openly, and we have built a life together that no one else can touch. We do not let anyone see anything that happens behind our closed doors. It’s in those private moments together that our true strength of our relationship has formed over the past 31 years.
Your partner is your best friend and the most important priority. To build a strong marriage, remember, isn’t about appearances; it’s about the love, trust, and commitment you share, no matter what life throws your way.
Good morning, Friday. Today I want to share another song with you. This song was inspired by my nickname my dad gave me. I don’t know if he called anyone else by this name or even the meaning behind it. I did use Suno AI to create the music. I used PixVerse for the video. PixVerse allows you to upload a picture and write a description to create a 5-second video. I took my kindergarten picture and told it to create a little girl dancing. I took that 5-second clip and repeated it and added filters and effects. The lyrics are mine. I hope you enjoy.
So today was just another day at work. Tomorrow I have to go to the eye doctor to get an injection in my left eye. I have what is called wet macular degeneration. My eyes have been bad all my life, and now as I get older, they are getting worse. But that is not why I am here posting again. I want to share a video on YouTube for a song I created using SunoAI. I wrote a song and used SunoAI for the music and singer for a YouTube channel called Fearfully Created. I am unable to get a hold of her to share it with her. I want to just share it with her to see if she likes it and wants the song. I hold the copyrights, but I want to give it to her for her channel. But I am unable to reach her. She has a large amount of subscribers, and she doesn’t reply to her comments. She may not even be the one who reads her comments and replies. I really don’t know. But she won’t reply to any of my comments. I left several comments on different videos, but she won’t even acknowledge me. I even sent her a gift in a box last summer. I wanted to give her some things, but I never got a reply or acknowledgment that she got the box. But I did see it in the background of one of her videos. She was giving things to a church to have a yard sale, and I saw the box full of stuff. I don’t know if it had any of the things in it that I put in the box but I do know it took her a month to retrieve it from the post office. I guess those big channels are too busy for the small people out here that like to watch her videos.
As of today, I only have 133 subscribers. I want to be monetized, but I hope I don’t get to big to where I can’t reply to read my comments. YouTube is a personal place. We are sharing our lives with each other. I know it maybe hard to reply to everyone, but if you see one person making comments over and over again in different videos, you should at least give a thumbs up or something.
But all this being said, this is not the reason I am writing today. I did write another song for another YouTuber, and I reached out to her, and she liked the song. So I have put that song on my channel, and I hope you like it and will see if she is your cup of tea. Her channel name is Lisa Sharing Life Stories With You.
So I had to go back to work after being off for a few snow days.
Side yard looking towards the roadNeighbors Pine and Oak TreesOur swing
As usual, I am busy at my job, but my mind does wonder. I am thinking about all the things I need to get done at home. As well as things I want to do with my new website and all the videos I want to create.
I have so much I want to do. And the closer I am to retirement, the more I think about all the things that I want to do. I even went so far to make myself a list of things on my cell phone on my breaks.
Here is my starter list.
I want to blog daily, or at least every other day.
Create more songs in Suno AI music generator.
Create YouTube videos for my website weekly.
Go live on YouTube once a week—I need to figure out a schedule.
I want to sell my notebook/journal that I created. I need to figure out how to make them and how to sell them.
Create a monthly newsletter with Ephemera that I find. I don’t know how to do this yet, but I will figure it out.
I think this is a good start. I want this to be a website where – you can come back to visit – to see new things – and – to comment. I want you, as the reader, to enjoy my content and want to come back.
Welcome to my life. I think this is a “Good Thing” for me. If you would, please give me a comment or send me an email. It doesn’t cost you anything, and it will really help me.
Ava BearThis is the name of my AI voice in ClipChampIsn’t Ava cute?
Thursday January 9th it started snowing here. It slowly came in and snowed almost all day Friday the 10th. Today I ventured out to take some video and some pictures. I created a song in Suno ai, called Whispers of Winter, to go along with the pictures. I also created a video on my YouTube Channel with the song. This is officially my first blog for WordPress.
Married in Arkansas 