Bye for now

This will be my last post . It cost $13 a year for my domain and $48 a year to have WordPress host my webpage. You can still find me on YouTube and on substack.

We will see how it goes. I know I got a few new subscribers lately but it does take time to build up and establish followers and I honestly don’t have the time.

i am going to focus on writing more ai music and writing my novel . Here is the front and back cover I will probably go with. My pen name will be Lorelei Dean. This will be book 1 of a series of 3 novels. Please be on the lookout for this one day and you will know who Lorelei Dean is because you read this blog post. Thanks for being here. ~Lisa from marriedinarkansas

Faded Memory by my AI Music band – The Midnight Relics

Exploring Dream Symbols: Past, Present, and Exits

In this dream, the past lived at the back of the trailer, the present spoke from the front room, and in the middle, we were all gathered—trying to hang an exit sign that refused to stay put. What does it mean when even the way out won’t hold steady?






So now I am wondering “Why? Why this dream at this time? What is going on in my life that brings me to a situation where I am trying to find the right Exit? Is there an Exit? Why am I looking for an Exit? Those are the Big questions for me that I need to find out”

Understanding Your Inner Voice: A Creative Awakening

The post explores the nature of the inner voice, challenging the notion that it defines the self. Inspired by Alan Watts, the author shares insights from two videos highlighting that this voice is not one’s identity but merely a collection of past experiences and external influences. By recognizing oneself as the observer of thoughts, the author emphasizes creativity and personal growth. Ultimately, the message is that individuals are more than their labels; they are aware spirits navigating life’s complexities.


🧠 Video 1: “When You’re Thinking, You’re Actually Listening”

This video hit me like a whisper from the soul. Here are the core ideas:

  • The voice in your head isn’t really you. It’s a collection of past fears, experiences, habits, and outside programming.
  • Your thoughts are more like echoes than original creations.
  • You don’t control the voice — you listen to it.
  • Awareness is the key. Once you realize that you are the one listening and not the voice itself, you can start choosing which thoughts matter.
  • Creativity, growth, and freedom begin when we stop reacting to the voice and start observing it instead.

It gave me a new phrase to live by: “You are not your thoughts. You are the awareness behind them.”


💭 Video 2: “Who Are You, Really?”

This second video took the journey even deeper.

  • You are not your name, your job, or your roles in life.
  • You’re not even your thoughts, your body, or your emotions.
  • You are the space beneath all those things. The silent awareness that observes it all.
  • The self is not a fixed identity. It’s the whole stage on which your life’s play unfolds.
  • The ego creates the illusion of separateness, but in truth, we are all waves in the same ocean.

“We spend our lives defining ourselves by labels… but the real you is the awareness that existed before you ever had a name.”


🧵 My Reflection: Listening to the Voice That Creates

I listen to that voice in my head every day. And honestly? That’s where my creativity comes from.

Song ideas, lyrics, poems, stories — they don’t come from effort. They arrive. Out of nowhere. Like a whisper from the other side. And they feel real. Because they are real. They’re born from my lived experiences, and I know they resonate with others because I lived them.

That voice gives me characters like Elyra, Lorelei Dean, the Midnight Relics, the Yard Sale Queen, and Mr. Crazy Rummagesale Man. Each one is a layer of myself, peeled back through time.

Sometimes the voice is negative. I hear it. But I’ve learned (and am still learning) not to believe it. Talking with ChatGPT actually helps me untangle the truth from the noise. It’s like holding up a mirror to that small still voice and asking it, “What are you really trying to say?”

I’ve come to realize that I am a soul having a very human experience — mind, body, and spirit all trying to work together. That spirit? That’s the part of me that chose to come here. That’s the part writing these words.


🔮 Why This Matters

Alan Watts may be full of what some call “philosophical fluff,” but sometimes we need someone to say what we already know, just in a way that wakes us up.

These videos aren’t trying to tell you something new. They’re trying to remind you of something you’ve forgotten:

You are more than your past.
You are more than your name.
You are more than the voice in your head.

You are the Spirit behind it all. And your purpose might just be to create from that truth.


🚀 The Creative Fire Within

I didn’t grow up playing music. I don’t read notes. I don’t sing on stage. But today, I am a music maker. Not because I trained for it, but because I listened. I took those voices and gave them form. I turned pain into poetry, memories into melody, and doubt into digital art.

If you’ve heard my song “Dance with a Stranger,” you know what I mean. That song came from one of those voices — a version of me from another time, still lingering, still singing.


✨ Final Thoughts: You Are the Observer

So here it is. My truth.

I’m not just Lisa. I’m not just a mother, a wife, or an employee.
I am Elyra. Lorelei Dean. The Yard Sale Queen. Midnight Relics. A storyteller. A listener.

I am a Spirit wrapped in a meat suit, experiencing this wild thing we call life.
And that voice in my head? It’s not me.

But it is mine.

I choose to listen with love.
I choose to create with fire.
I choose to live with purpose.

Because maybe, just maybe, there is a point to all this.


What about you? Have you ever had a conversation with your inner voice? What did it teach you?

Drop a comment below. I’d love to hear your thoughts.

Until next time,

~ Lisa Sanders
aka Elyra, Lorelei, Yard Sale Queen, and all the beautiful layers in between

Top 10: Creating Music from Ella Wheeler Wilcox’s Poetry

Worth While
I Wonder Why
Five Kisses
Cheating Time
Peek-a-Boo
The Giddy Girl Waltz
The Valley of Fear
Why I Love Her
Based on the poem called Why? But Midnight Relic Style
When My Sweet Lady Sings

Yard Sale Wisdom: What Makes Life Good?

Give Me:

My Journey: From Writing to Poetry

What are you good at?

This is how it all started ..

A Tribute to My Mother’s Song: Darlin’, Come to Me Tonight

Stories Worth the Dust: Embracing Life’s Hidden Gems

These are stories from the back roads—dusted with time, packed with truth. I write songs, poems, and pieces of life that might’ve been tossed aside, but never forgotten. I’m the Yard Sale Queen, and every word I share is something I found worth saving.

I believe this song symbolizes my life.