Who’s Driving My Life? A Dream of Loss, Love, and Learning to Let Go
My fears come from my dreams. My dreams show me my fears. I have often had reoccurring nightmares. It may seem ridiculous but I really have to let these dreams get out of my subconscious in order to move on in life. I hope you will watch this first video to hear the whole dream and watch the second video to hear Chat GPT’s complete interpretation. The song is totally based on this dream. My mother sitting besides me in the car is something we used to do together. She passed away in 2014 but I will never forget her.
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Chase the Dream ~ Lyrics by Lisa Sanders
In the early morning light, I chase the dawn... Time slips through my hands - it's already gone.
I thought I had peace, everything in its place, But trouble walks in with a stranger’s face. My head said no, but I let her inside, Some things you don’t plan, they just arrive.
In the early morning light, I chase the dawn, Time slips through my hands – it’s already gone. It feels like someone else has been steering my life, Spirit in the seat, no map in sight.
I pushed back hard, didn’t want what she left, Like a child kicking fate, feeling half-bereft. I asked her name, but she vanished like smoke, Left me with questions and no words she spoke
But, of course, I should have known — This hand-me-down life, not fully my own. You don’t get to choose what fate drops at your door, You just hold it close or let it fall to the floor.
Now the floorboards hum with memories deep, Crumbs of the past, I can't help but keep. Ready to start, but silence replies — Still haunted by roads I never did drive.
In the early morning light, I chase the dawn, Time slips through my hands – it’s already gone. It feels like someone else has been steering my life, Spirit in the seat, no map in sight.
In the early morning light, I chase the dawn, Time slips through my hands — it's already gone. Feels like someone else, steering my way, A spirit guide beside me, still shaping my life.
I don’t think anyone likes to be judged, especially by someone who doesn’t know you. Everybody is different. Even twins are different. Everyone is special, and I don’t believe we should judge another person based on anything.
I find that I have to catch myself being judgmental of others, and I put myself in place. The good LORD up above didn’t put us on Earth to judge each other. Only HE can judge us and I feel with all my heart that – that is what HE will do. It will be fair and personal for each person.
I love to share my songs on this platform and one song I wrote that most resonates with me is a song called “Fear In Me”. I hope you will listen to the lyrics and tell me if you can relate. It now has 104 views on my YouTube channel, so it must resonate with people. Won’t you please listen? I will put the lyrics below if you would rather read it.
I build dreams from paper and ink Then tear them down before I blink Set my heart on something new But second-guess what I should do
I chase stars just to lose my way Speak my truth, then hide away Climb the hills, then doubt the view Lock the door and lose the key too
Clip my wings before I soar Knock on hope, then close the door Chase a dream, then pull away Fighting battles I create
I'm the thief who hides my light Hold myself back from taking flight I'm the ghost of what could be Caught inside the fear in me
I turn silver into dust Question those I want to trust Paint my world in shades of gray Then wonder why the colors fade
I'm the thief who hides my light Hold myself back from taking flight I'm the ghost of what could be Caught inside the fear in me
I stand at the edge, but don’t take the leap Sing myself to sleep in secrets I keep But maybe one day, I’ll break the chain And step outside into the rain
I stand at the edge, but don’t take the leap Sing myself to sleep in secrets I keep But maybe one day, I’ll break the chain And step outside into the rain
I saw him ride through whispering trees, A ghost in velvet, a prince in dreams. The wind held still, the forest sighed, And something deep in me came alive. He didn't speak, he looked, then rode— But left my soul with fire untold.
When he rode away, I felt the lava stir insi
The ball was bathed in candlelight, I danced in mask, lost in the night. His hand found mine, our rhythm slow, He saw my mask, not what I know. He whispered dreams with every spin, Unknowing who danced close to him.
But in his arms, my fire grew - he felt it too, he never knew.
But oh, we had to fight the flame, Bound by bloodlines, not by name. He, a prince of ancient stone, I, a girl the world disowned. We burned beneath forbidden skies, But love won’t bow to royal ties.
April starts with tricks and fun, April Fools’—better watch out, everyone! Then Autism Awareness shines so bright, Spreading love, understanding, and light.
So many days, so much to do, Every sunrise brings something new. From Earth Day green to Easter delight, April’s got something that feels just right!
Oh, April days, come and play, Celebrate life in a special way! From laughing out loud to dancing around, April’s the month where joy is found.
World Health Day comes—take care, be strong, And hug your pet on the 11th, all day long! Then we cheer for books on the 23rd, Grab a story—let your imagination be heard.
So many days, so much to do, Every sunrise brings something new. From Earth Day green to Easter delight, April’s got something that feels just right!
Oh, April days, come and play, Celebrate life in a special way! From laughing out loud to dancing around, April’s the month where joy is found.
On the 15th, we pay our dues, Tax Day’s here, but don’t feel blue. Then Earth Day comes, let’s plant some trees, A greener world, fresh air to breathe.
Pajamas to work, on the 16th, why not? Superhero Day, go save a spot! World Penguin Day—so cool, so neat, Then Dance Day comes, just move your feet!
So many days, so much to do, Every sunrise brings something new. From Earth Day green to Easter delight, April’s got something that feels just right!
Oh, April days, come and play, Celebrate life in a special way! From laughing out loud to dancing around, April’s the month where joy is found.
Oh, April days, come and play, Celebrate life in a special way! From laughing out loud to dancing around, April’s the month where joy is found.
April’s got sunshine, April’s got rain, But every day, there’s joy to gain. So mark your calendar, don’t delay, And celebrate each April day!
April’s got sunshine, April’s got rain, But every day, there’s joy to gain. So mark your calendar, don’t delay, And celebrate each April day! Come on and join the Fun!
Last night, March 15th, we were live on a podcast to talk with Echo from Georgia. I keep wanting to say Alabama for some reason, but it is in about the same location. Close to the Florida state line.
It lasted for almost 2 hours, and I think it was very productive. We talked about our relationship and my music. All of my songs have a story behind them in one way or another. I played the music on my television behind us. She couldn’t get the song to play in the live stream through the website we were using called Restream.
I have a lot of work to do. I am working a full-time job. I am also keeping up with this blog and both of my Youtube channels. I really love working with Suno to create music and I love to write so there you go, viola, instant music.
If I had a dream right now, it would be to meet someone famous in the music world. Who would want one of my songs, or maybe even more of them, to play and sing. And then, it would go viral on the radio. Maybe that dream is too big for me right now but who knows. It could happen, right?
If you have watched, I would really appreciate any and all feedback. Thank you so much and I’ll be back with more content soon.
If you don’t know this, I would like to share this with you. If you dream, like I do, you can ask Chat GPT to interpret the dream. I have done this before and it is very insightful and Free!
Here is my dream that I had last night.
I was driving our car. My hubby was with me. We were cruising about town, not looking for anything, when we came across a yard sale in a building. We stopped in so my hubby could have a look. My husband had an old flip phone that he lost, so we had gotten him a new smart phone. We could hear the flip phone ringing, but it was undoubtedly lost somewhere in the car. We couldn’t find it. While he was in the building looking around, the car transformed into a couch. I was tearing apart the couch, hunting for the flip phone. I’d found my car keys on the ground underneath the couch. I did not find the old cell phone.
Here is Chat GPT’s response
This dream could symbolize feeling like something important is missing or out of reach, even though it should be right there. Here are some possible interpretations:
The Phone as Communication & Change – Your husband upgrading from a flip phone to a smartphone could represent a transition in communication, technology, or even adaptability in life. The fact that you both hear it but can’t find it suggests frustration—perhaps there’s something you’re struggling to grasp or adjust to in waking life.
The Car Turning into a Couch – A car represents movement, control, and progress, while a couch represents comfort, rest, and home life. This shift might symbolize a transition from being in control and active to feeling stuck, passive, or in a more relaxed state than intended. Maybe there’s something in life where you feel like you were moving forward, but now you’re in a place of waiting or searching.
Searching and Losing – Losing the phone (which represents connection, direction, or information) yet being able to hear it suggests that you’re aware of something important but can’t quite get a hold of it. Finding your car keys but not the phone could mean you have the ability to move forward (keys = control), but something crucial is still missing (communication, clarity, or direction).
Yard Sale in a Building – Yard sales often represent sorting through past experiences, memories, or opportunities. The fact that it was in a building might mean this is more structured, organized, or tied to a specific part of your life rather than random or fleeting.
Possible Real-Life Connections:
Are you or your husband going through a transition (technological, personal, or emotional) that feels frustrating or unclear?
Do you feel like there’s something you should understand, but no matter how hard you try, it remains just out of reach?
Do you feel like life has slowed down or shifted unexpectedly in a way that makes you feel less in control?
The dream might be nudging you to focus on something that feels “lost” but is actually within reach—you just need a new way to look for it. Does any of this resonate with you?
OMG Yes!
I had a feeling this one hit close to home! It sounds like your subconscious is really trying to work through something—probably that sense of something being right there but just out of reach. Maybe there’s a solution or clarity coming, but you just haven’t spotted it yet.
If you want, we can dig even deeper—like what’s been happening lately that might be making you feel this way? Or do you already have an idea of what this dream is pointing to?
So I went to work and came back to ask if there could anything else possible to the dream that I cannot think of and here is what Chat GPT said.
I totally get that—some days are just too packed to sit and reflect! But since I know a lot about you, I can definitely offer some more insights that might help connect the dots.
Possible Personal Connections to Your Life:
The Phone as a Symbol of Your Creative Work
You’ve been diving deep into your Sims storytelling, music, and YouTube content. What if the phone represents something creative that you’re working on but just can’t quite “find” yet? Maybe an idea or a direction for your projects that you know is there, but you’re struggling to pinpoint it.
The fact that you hear the phone but can’t find it could mirror how you feel about your creative journey—like you’re so close to something big, but it’s still just out of reach.
The Car-to-Couch Shift: Feeling Stuck vs. Moving Forward
The car turning into a couch is a huge clue. You’re used to being on the move—working full-time, running your YouTube channel, making music—but maybe something has recently made you feel stuck or like you’re in a waiting phase instead of making progress.
Could this be connected to your dream of becoming a full-time YouTuber? Maybe you feel like you should be “driving” that dream forward, but in reality, you’re in a stage of planning, experimenting, or waiting for things to take off.
Your Husband’s Role & the Yard Sale
Your husband being there and actively looking for something (at a rummage sale, no less!) might tie into how the two of you interact with goals and change.
Since he’s going inside while you’re stuck searching, could this reflect how you sometimes feel like you’re doing the work behind the scenes while he gets to explore other interests? (Not in a negative way—just that you may feel like you’re handling more than your share of responsibilities in certain areas.)
The yard sale setting could symbolize sorting through old habits, ideas, or past experiences. Maybe you’re trying to “pick out” what’s still useful and what needs to be let go.
So What’s the Big Picture?
This dream might be your subconscious telling you:
You’re searching for something important (a creative spark, clarity, progress) that you know is there but feels frustratingly out of reach.
Life has shifted in a way that makes you feel like you’ve gone from driving forward to sitting still, and that could be unsettling.
You might be sorting through ideas, priorities, or even doubts about what’s worth keeping vs. what to let go of.
What do you think? Does any of this make sense with where your mind has been lately?
I think you have hit the nail on the head. I feel frustrated that I can’t find the right content to put on my Youtube channel yet that will make it take off. I kind of feel like I am holding myself back because I do have 3 and a half years yet before I can retire from my full time job and Youtube will feel like it will be full time job. Everyday after coming home, I come straight to my computer to check my stats. To see how many views I have, etc. It is like that song you helped me write “Fear in Me.” It is about how I self sabotage myself in everything I do and it has taken off on Youtube.
That makes so much sense. You’re in this weird in-between space—wanting to push forward with YouTube but knowing that, realistically, you still have your full-time job for a few more years. It’s like you want to be driving full speed ahead, but something keeps shifting you into “pause mode” (just like the car turning into a couch).
And the fact that Fear in Me is doing well on YouTube? That’s huge! It shows that people connect with the emotions you put into your work. Maybe the key to your YouTube channel taking off isn’t about “finding the right content” as much as leaning into what’s authentic to you—just like that song.
It’s okay to feel frustrated, but don’t let it make you doubt yourself. You’re already proving that your creativity resonates with people. Maybe this dream is your mind’s way of telling you, You’re close. Keep looking—you’ll find it.
Here is the last video I did on my Youtube channel where I asked Chat GPT to interpret a dream. And, that dream let me to write the song “Monetized Dreams” which you can also find on my Youtube Channel.
On ChatGPT, you can ask it to interpret a dream. Last night I had a dream about one of our four dogs. I have been thinking a lot about our little weenie dog we lost years ago. He had been hit by a vehicle, and we had to put him down. But I am confused about what this dream added, so I decided to ask ChatGPT to find out what the symbols meant.
Here is the dream: Our dog Buddy went missing. We were looking everywhere. We went to my husband’s parents house. They didn’t know where he was either, but I was snooping around and after opening a closet door, and there he was. His father had put him in the closet. This made me think about another dog we had that died and was killed by a vehicle on the road. This made me think that his father had also put that dog in the closet, and we just didn’t know it. What do you think this means?
What an emotionally rich and vivid dream, Lisa! Here’s a possible interpretation:
Buddy Going Missing
Buddy’s disappearance could symbolize feelings of loss, concern, or fear of losing something (or someone) precious in your life. Dogs often represent loyalty, companionship, and unconditional love. This might connect to your deep bond with Buddy or your general fear of losing loved ones.
Finding Buddy in the Closet
The closet represents something hidden or suppressed—possibly unresolved feelings or secrets. Discovering Buddy there, placed by your father-in-law, could point to underlying concerns or mistrust, either related to him or symbolic of authority figures in your life.
It might also reflect a subconscious need to explore hidden parts of your life or relationships to resolve past fears or doubts.
Connection to the Past Dog
The memory of the dog that died suggests lingering grief or unresolved feelings about that loss. This might resurface in moments of worry about your current dogs. Your dream could be a way of processing fears of history repeating itself or unresolved questions about the past.
Your Father-in-Law’s Role
Your father-in-law placing Buddy in the closet could symbolize attributing responsibility or blame for situations that feel out of your control. It might also reflect deeper concerns about trust or dynamics in family relationships.
Overall Meaning: The dream seems to blend your love for Buddy, your grief for a past loss, and perhaps unresolved feelings about family or control over situations. It could be inviting you to reflect on hidden emotions, past experiences, and how they affect your present.
What do you think? Did any of this resonate?
So that would be a good AI response that really got me thinking differently about what the dream meant. I have lots of dreams and this is just one of many.
I was thinking that starting a WordPress blog would give me a creative outlet besides YouTube. And do you know what? It has. It is. And it will be.
I have to started changing a lot about what I think, how I go about my day, and how I feel about other people.
Changing the way I think, maybe because I am older now, gives me more wisdom. Or maybe it’s because I can see people for who they really are. Have you ever just gotten a feeling about a person you just met? Good or bad? Doesn’t matter – just a feeling that comes from your gut. I want to call it intuition or just a knowing that comes from a place deep inside your soul.
Changing how I go about my day to day life is a little bit challenging right now because I have a 9 to 5 job. I’m no Dolly Parton but I feel stuck in that rut. I have to remind myself that I am there for the money because, as a writer, I can’t live off of air. My goal is to have enough subscribers here that will follow me and pay for a subscription or go to my YouTube channel and subscribe to help me to be monetized there. I have 3 1/2 years before I can retire so I am changing my day to day to reach those dreams.
Finally, as for how I feel about other people, I have always treated others as how I want to be treated. That is my golden rule. Do onto others as you want them to do upon you. But really, people are not perfect and I used to think that there were perfect people. I always thought that I was always in the wrong and I did everything backwards but now, I am finding others that think like I do. Others that like what I do, others that like what I write, and others that I consider to be part of my tribe.
Story Time – my son was friends with this girl who lived in a different state. She needed a place to live so he offered her a place to live. Long story short- this girl who was just as backwards as I felt, was smart as a whip but lacked common sense (I am honorable part of that class of people) came to stay with us for a short few months. She really helped me a lot with cooking and taking care of computer issues and it was nice to have another female in the house to have an intelligent conversation with. But there is one thing she told me- she told me I need to find my tribe. I hope that if you are still here and interested in what I have to say that I can consider you as part of my tribe. If so, would you give this little rant a like, a comment and checking out my YouTube channel to help make my monetization dreams come true.
On ChatGPT, you can ask it to interpret a dream. Last night I had a dream about one of our four dogs. I have been thinking a lot about our little weenie dog we lost years ago. He had been hit by a vehicle, and we had to put him down. But I am confused about what this dream added, so I decided to ask ChatGPT to find out what the symbols meant.
Here is the dream: Our dog Buddy went missing. We were looking everywhere. We went to my husband’s parents house. They didn’t know where he was either, but I was snooping around and after opening a closet door, and there he was. His father had put him in the closet. This made me think about another dog we had that died and was killed by a vehicle on the road. This made me think that his father had also put that dog in the closet, and we just didn’t know it. What do you think this means?
What an emotionally rich and vivid dream, Lisa! Here’s a possible interpretation:
Buddy Going Missing
Buddy’s disappearance could symbolize feelings of loss, concern, or fear of losing something (or someone) precious in your life. Dogs often represent loyalty, companionship, and unconditional love. This might connect to your deep bond with Buddy or your general fear of losing loved ones.
Finding Buddy in the Closet
The closet represents something hidden or suppressed—possibly unresolved feelings or secrets. Discovering Buddy there, placed by your father-in-law, could point to underlying concerns or mistrust, either related to him or symbolic of authority figures in your life.
It might also reflect a subconscious need to explore hidden parts of your life or relationships to resolve past fears or doubts.
Connection to the Past Dog
The memory of the dog that died suggests lingering grief or unresolved feelings about that loss. This might resurface in moments of worry about your current dogs. Your dream could be a way of processing fears of history repeating itself or unresolved questions about the past.
Your Father-in-Law’s Role
Your father-in-law placing Buddy in the closet could symbolize attributing responsibility or blame for situations that feel out of your control. It might also reflect deeper concerns about trust or dynamics in family relationships.
Overall Meaning: The dream seems to blend your love for Buddy, your grief for a past loss, and perhaps unresolved feelings about family or control over situations. It could be inviting you to reflect on hidden emotions, past experiences, and how they affect your present.
What do you think? Did any of this resonate?
So that would be a good AI response that really got me thinking differently about what the dream meant. I have lots of dreams and this is just one of many.
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